You are a cheater. You have been cheating your entire life and it sounds like you are proud of it. Worse than all of it, you sound like you sleep well. You are the problem with society--

you can and will rationalize anything, any action or inaction that serves your purpose.

I feel sad for you and your family.

cheating is bad, doesn't matter if you can rationalize your choices or not, it is wrong and bad.